Everything happen for all the wrong reasons today...
So suddenly I quarrel without reason with someone i treasured the most.
My work place keep asking me to wear pink shirt for valentine day.
My sister for being a jack ass.
My bike for being the one that cut a hole into my pocket (I thought it was always women, but i was WRONG!)
My cat for being a nuisance in my life but i love him...hehehe
My Room for being OPEN TO PUBLIC for my sis and her frens whom i think I can start worry for my briefs, just scared that someone took it by mistake. always told her to clean my room before letting them in, yet she's a jack ass after all.
For my MONEY which always in the wrong budget spending and end up left me eating instant noodles.
for my body mass...erm..lets just keep this a secret for me.
for my ANIME which i bought at Johor that end up not in FULL EPISODE!!! (nearly took out Bankai at them).
Hmm...i think thats all happened to me today $-) .
But when I'm feeling down and angry, I always have my trustee Camera beside me, my finger to do the story...
I hate being in a Negetive mode all the time since I love being positive, but sometimes i cant always control my anger. it comes naturally sometimes and i always make a big mistak when i'm angry. really, i can't always make a good decision when i'm angry, so i tend to be more stress. to counter this problems i tend to went somewhere nice and beautiful to calm myself. to think straight and open my mind freely so that i can take all the negetive aura from people into me and bring out the positive.
If i ever made a mistake to my frens or people i cherish the most, i want to say I AM VERY SORRY! Hontoni Gomenasai! I don't intend to make people angry or sad because of my mouth. I've experience what my mouth can do until a foundation of family nearly collapsed because of me. I have a BLACK record in my family history for doing alot of mistake and till today, they still have doubts to trust me, but i dun mind since it was my mistake, i carry that burden with me all the time. I only wait for ONE day...people will accept me for who i am and for me to correct it in the future. since i dun have the power to erased the past.
I'm still trying my best to change myself. now, i will do wat it takes to make someone happy even to the person i cherish the most :-D
